Friday, June 14, 2013

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It's been 5 weeks since I was hospitalized for life-threatening septic complications from a severely infected and inflamed gallbladder......35 days since the percutaneous drain was inserted into my liver and gallbladder and I have had it ever since.



Being this sick for 5 week has made me weary. I am tired of feeling sick and I really want to be better....I am tired of not being able to do anything, and I am tired of trying to do something anyway only to get so sleepy and weak that I need to stop.

Even though the drain and the IV antibiotics have been in place for 5 weeks to allow everything inside to calm down before surgery is performed, I am continually reminded by my doctors and family that those things are band aids (especially the drain). I am still very ill because my gallbladder is still a wreck and I will continue to be until it is removed.



So while I can't wait to do the surgery and get it over with so I can really recover and really get better, I also have alternated back and forth between feeling excited and feeling totally anxious and panicked over all that can possibly go wrong when they finally remove it.

Because of everything that happened to my body because of my gallbladder, this surgery will be riskier than normal. The biggest risk would occur if the intended laparoscopic surgery turns into an open one. I am praying with all my heart, mind, and soul that my surgeon won't need to open me up because the complication rate triples and the recovery will be arduous, and unbelievably lengthy.



However, we won't know if it ends up being laparoscopic or open until I wake up from anesthesia after the surgery....hence....some anxiety mixed with some panic mixed with hesitation and some "excitement" to get it over with.

A few verses have been particularly comforting to me while others have convicted me in a great way, reminding me that I have complete power through the Holy Spirit to NOT fear. Reading them calms my heart and soul.

Here are a few {and all are available for purchase in my Etsy Shop}:

This one accompanied a devotional page in Jesus Today that was amazing:


and the one I want to print and take to the hospital with me:


The big day is 6 days from now....
Thursday, June 20th at 10:15 am.

Will you please pray for me?

I will end this post with two of my favorite pictures from Our Happy Place...our annual beach vacation...because looking at these two photos and at the loved ones that are in them makes me forget my troubles. It causes me to do nothing but smile and give thanks for such simple yet profound treasures.



Happy Friday to you all....and Happy Father's Day to all of the awesome Dads out there! :)

3 comments:

Zachary Botelho said...

I hope everything works out. I'm just getting back today from Orlando, Universal Studios. Its good to see Yogi again. Its really cool how you can see the kids practically grow up on a timeline, reading about their live's. I know your busy and all, but it would be cool if you can make kind of a collage like you did on the New Year posts but show them growing up. In fact, maybe as a little hospital gift I can make one for you, you're kids, you're dog, Tim & you, and all the events and such. Even though I don't think you will really like it (I'm not the best picture editor, haha)but what parent doesn't like seeing pictures of their kids and such? Gavin has been getting really big over the past years, I'm so glad he finally got to attempt to surf. I remember in a post from the past where he was watching Chelsea surf, you must have been so proud of him to take after his fathers footsteps! Well Carla, feel free to message me sometime or reply to this, Id be happy to make something. Tell your family I said hi!

~Zachary

Jay Hendershot said...

I will pray for you!

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